SaumyaRants

 Whenever I study a subject that a teacher passionate about teaching taught me, I feel an innate desire to learn that subject. Whenever I listen to songs written, composed, and produced by J-hope, arguably the best dancer in BTS, I suddenly want to dance. The same with and rapping and singing at times for other members too. Programming with my father is a hundred times more fun than normal. Watching an artist draw makes me want open my sketchbook too. Watching a study with me video by a dedicated medical student makes me want to be a topper. Doing balshakti work with my mother makes me want to do that when I grow up too. As you may know by my last post, I do not have set passion, and I have often felt sad about it. But I am certainly a sponge for other peoples'. And I find that beautiful.

The feeling of passion isn't as crystal clear as happiness or sadness. Some people say that it's when your heart starts racing and you get excited for doing something. Some say it's the desire to achieve excellence and be diligent. Most people, according to society, have a passion. For them it usually turns into their job or hobby. For my dad it's programming and reading. For my mom it is Balshakti work and gardening. I, on the other hand have always felt..passionless. I may spend hours doing something and definitely like doing it, and even have the desire to be excellent in it, but it never felt like it was my passion. I always felt a tinge of melancholy because of this. I even had a privilege of having parents who did not impose their unfulfilled dreams on me, because they had none. As a result, I didn't even have any passions imposed on me. Some may say that I'm too young. Maybe they're right.  A couple years ago I started getting worried about this. I do