Executive Dysfunction

Executive Dysfunction is when the brain and body refuse to cooperate. The brain wants to do something, but the body is doing something else. It is different from procrastination such that the person is actively wanting to do the task at hand, instead of leaving it for their future self, but is unable to do so. This makes it difficult for the person to not only do academic or professional tasks, but also the easy and important stuff, like chores or hobbies.

Here's a short poem by me, inspired from my experience.

I sit in my room

being 'lazy' like always

I tell myself that I'm going to

finally change my ways

But at this point I know

that it is all a lie

I tell myself lets go

But I don't comply

what is this confusion

I can't listen to myself

Executive dysfunction

greeting me again

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